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Shane Newville
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Current Residence: Austin, TX
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Here I am sitting at my desk at 1am staring past the monitors thinking about life.
Another year is almost over.
And man, what a year.
I would be lying if I said it has not been the most difficult year I've ever experienced.
It has been loss after loss.
Losing battle after losing battle.
I've fought to stay hopeful and positive only to be met with more loss and disappointment.
Every area of my life has been shaken and flipped upside down.
I still keep a smile on my face for the people around me.
Still making a living to support the little ones who now live on the opposite side of the country.
Facing daily memories and reminders of important people I've lost.
A lot has changed and not much it the way I hoped for this year.

I've had to do a lot of soul searching.
Every moment of the past has lead to this very point in time.
What does it mean? What is important? What is it that really matters in this short life?
Who am I and what does it even matter?
Am I doing anything that will be remembered or affect other people in a way that has meaning
or will I just fade into nothing and be forgotten when I pass away?
I know this all sounds very gloomy, but it's reality and I'm doing my best to face it.
I want a break from life to collect myself and figure things out, but that is most likely not possible.
Have I really become jaded? And if I have is it reversible?

...

Just have to stop and take a deep breath.
Remember what is precious.
Not look at all the bad from the point of view of a victim.
but rather see events that have caused growth and maturity in some way.
Remember my blessings and cherish the good memories and people who have come and gone.
Everything is too overwhelming and it's not doing any good to sit and stew in it.
Feeling angry about things I want to go differently that are completely out of my control only causes depression.

Monty Oum was one of the only people I was blessed to know who seemed to never let the bad stop him from doing what he was passionate about.
I try to do the same and feel a bit less capable. That guy was somethings special and so is his wife Sheena.
The death of her spouse who meant everything to her is only part of what she dealt with.
...someday. Maybe you'll know about it. Telling what happened would only do more harm than good right now.
But knowing what I know, I wish I could give her the woman of the year award for staying strong through it all and not letting it cause her to die inside.

life. thoughts. blah.

We'll get through and continue on.
Part of me says it's a mistake to post something like this here.
Part of me is tired of having to filter things to the point I don't say anything at all.
I dont know. Im tired. I need sleep. And a cheese burger.
Hoping 2016 will be a new season of good things in life.
  • Mood: Distracted
  • Watching: One Punch Man
  • Playing: Axiom Verge
  • Drinking: Coffee

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GuerrieroNero Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2016
I just read that you're leaving Rooster Teeth...while it's a shock for all the RWBY fans out there, I wish you well and good luck - and I just hope like in a movie form the eighties "you'll be back".

I was supporting Monty way before he was hired for Red vs Blue, all the way back to the first Dead Fantasy and was actually happy to see the "master" found his first "disciple" (hope my English is not too bad, I'm writing from Europe), so as long as you were working on RWBY I wasn't worried about Monty's dream goin' on, and I speak for many other I guess.

Well, this is not intended to put pressure on you, especially since I don't actually know nothing about the situation...on the contrary to say thank you for everything.

It's just like team RWBY lost thier father with Monty so this feels like the big brother leaving as well...so I think we all wish that you take your time, find the answers you're lookin' for and hopefully to have you onboard again in the future, but most of all to always have the strength to keep movin' forward.

That said, whatever path you'll choose, I'll keep an eye on what you'll gift the world with.
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Vyctorian Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015   General Artist
Happy birthday!~
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ShaneNewville Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015  Professional Filmographer
Thank you!
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UltimateDragon96 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015
Happy Birthday
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ShaneNewville Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015  Professional Filmographer
Thank you!
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UltimateDragon96 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015
No prob. Keep being awesome.
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schorpioen007 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015
Happy birthday ^^
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ShaneNewville Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015  Professional Filmographer
Thank you!
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schorpioen007 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2015
You're welcome ^^
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FantasyRebirth96 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2015

Happy Birthday~ eat lots of :cake: and :party: hard!

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